For what it's worth, I am one white man who is willing to apologize for what my European brothers have done to your culture. Regardless of whether my direct ancestors oppressed your direct ancestors, I'm certain my ancestors DID do the same thing to the Indigenous American people. I know my apology is little condolence for what has been lost.

The native religions of my ancestors prior to Christianity have also been wiped out over a millennium ago. The only surviving semblances of those old faiths can be found in the Celtic, Asatru, and various "pagan" traditions. Almost all of the names of their gods and traditions have been erased from history. Please don't take this as an attempt to compare wounds, It's simply a perspective and an attempt to foster a bridge of understanding. The same thing happened to my ancestors, and the survivors merely perpetuated the generational trauma. It doesn't make it right, nor excuse their behavior.

I'm happy that you've found your faith and connection to the land of your ancestors. I wish I had that.

For me, I am merely a son desperately trying to recover from the sins of my fathers. It's heavy burden but one that I carry with humility and courage. My soul is a stranger in a land full of spirits that were brutalized by my ancestors and rightfully should hate me. I have no connection to the land of my ancestors. Yet this land has nourished me just the same and I am connected to it, for better or worse. I have no choice but to forge ahead and create something new. My indigenous past is forever lost to me.

Christianity, in many ways, is inferior to the native traditions around the world, especially it's modern incarnations. It's been a very sick religion for a very long time. If Christians don't start doing better, start actually seeking God, then the sickness will be terminal. That's probably for the best.