As a self-proclaimed heretic since at least 2005, I welcome you with open arms brother! I remember attending a seminar from a theologian in 2007-08, wish I could remember the dude’s name, but he was talking about the very same idea that God is not omniscient in the sense that He knows the future. He even had several biblical sources where it appears that God didn’t know the future. I remember thanking the guy profusely for such an insightful seminar. I thank you as well for putting these ideas out there in such a graceful manner. Keep up the faith and love! You are not alone!